I’ve been reflecting on how different I am while in a relationship vs while single.
I am a split definition in Human Design, and as much as I dislike to categorise people using astrology and other systems, understanding this split thing helped me understand my personality.
[According to Human Design – a system of understanding personality, some people don’t have gaps in energy channels that connect their major energy centres, and hence their charts are referred to as single definition. Other people have a split, a double or even triple split. The people whose profile have the split (one or two) are more prone to becoming co-dependent in relationships. (Apparently, it’s totally different with triple split)]
I don’t think single definition people can ever understand this. But when you are a split… you feel more like yourself when you are with another, who bridges your split.
Like, the whole yoga is out of equation. The whole sovereignty. The whole non-attachment…
I feel more like me when I’m with you! Voila!
And that’s pretty fucked, I have to say.
Because when you’re not there… guess what happens…. all I can do is think of you.
Human Design says: that’s how you are, just accept this and relax.
Anyway, that’s the romantic story of my life (that’s if any of you thought I was a superwoman – as much as I’d like to be, I’m… not. I’m just as messed up as everyone else.)
I’m still refusing to fall victim to this (I was joking, I AM a superwoman!), and I constantly look for ways to hack the system.
Every now and then I succeed. Actually. (My students have to giggle here, I can hear you!)
It’s been my lifelong exploration: how to not get lost in love.
I‘ve developed lots of practices for that. We do heaps of them at the Priestess School. I’m going to speak on stage about these things too. But I’ll let you in on a secret.
The best way to not get lost in love is… to get lost in love!
It also means the sacred temple, the gateway to the Universe and the Source. When we hear people speak about feminine empowerment, there are so many concepts around it, but not many people speak about the relationship of a woman to her vulva, her vagina, her yoni. Yet, that’s where the feminine empowerment should start. So many women don’t have a deep love and connection with their yoni.
Yoni has been shamed for centuries. She was labeled as stinky, ugly, disgusting area “down there”. This disconnect is the REAL cause of common issues such as low libido, recurring infections, PCOS, uterine prolapse, endometriosis, menstrual cramps, excessive bleeding and others.
Many yonis hardly receive any loving touch… And even less receive praise and are looked at with awe and admiration. Most yonis are not appreciated for the magical and mystical place they really are. Without that, our yonis fall asleep. Or sometimes they even fall into a coma. When we activate the yoni and our connection to her we start owning our power. We start accessing her intuition… And her intuition is always spot on.
Priestess is not a title or a superior position. Priestess refers to a state of alignment.
Just like the word “Goddess” and the word “Tantra”, the word “Priestess” is largely being misused.
This happens when people that have only limited understanding and awareness of what these terms actually mean start using these words.
Words are very powerful when they help shape consciousness.
Words are very limiting when we get attached to them, ignoring the energy that is behind them.
Words can create and empower as much as they can confuse.
So what does the word “Priestess” mean?
It’s a state of living in inner alignment with the Highest Truth and one’s Supreme Destiny.
It comes together with a capacity to detect when one gets off track and starts wearing blinders, and is living in a projection of reality. It comes together with a radical choice to keep peeling off layers of masks and protection. It comes together with a radical choice to Surrender to the Divine.
When you purify clogged energy, you become more truthful and you have the capacity to show who you really are. Until then your being is perceived through a prism. A prism of limiting somebody-ness.
In order to enable humankind to fulfil its highest destiny we need awakened beings to rise and act true to the calling of their Soul.
Awakening, finding and living this calling is what the Priestess School is dedicated to.
The question is:
Do you dare to commit to your true calling?
If you are new to my work, then this will be a good little intro. If you’ve been around for a while (perhaps even from the moment I started sending out these love letters in 2014!) – here’s where I’m currently landed 🙂
I founded the Priestess School in 2017. The School is a culmination of nearly a decade of my work with women. The School consists of 5 modules, each module lasting one week (apart from module 4 which goes on for 10 days).
The first module has received a reputation of being a “washing machine”, because it helps clear the murky and unconscious conditioning that women carry around concerning what it means to be a woman, and it is necessary to have a close look at that, so that Greatness can shine through. In this module women work with their shadow, learn to be-friend their emotions, their eroticism, their natural cycles; they also discover the science of the dynamic of attraction, meet the great mother Kali and fall in love with the process of Transformation. Women also discover what is their true Gift to the world, and get empowered to carry this gift with dignity and ownership.
The second module is where women start “stretching”. This module is called Activate Your Erotic Wisdom and this is a deep dive into eroticism and sexual liberation for women in a very safe environment of healing and empowerment.
The third module is when we invite men to join the temple. They have a training that runs in parallel to the women’s one and we all work on Activating the Warrior, and the Highest way of meeting between the Masculine and Feminine.
The fourth module is called the Great Work of the Soul, and this is when we go on a pilgrimage to an ancient Egyptian temple and collect the memories and codes necessary for us to hold the point for the birth of the New World.
The fifth module is the Leadership Training and it is an invitation only program that enables people to facilitate this work.
Accepting something sounds pretty simple, but is it, really?
Accepting when life just doesn’t go the way you were absolutely certain it would, when what you thought was a bright destiny dissolves into murky waters… Accepting when someone makes a choice that goes against what all your wisdom, intuition and heart are telling you…
It’s not easy.
Yet lack of acceptance is exactly what makes us discontent and unhappy.
The only way to accept is to develop a Trust in Life that transcends all reason.
This Trust is not about “I trust because I will be treated in a lovely way”. It is about “I trust because I know that whatever Life is offering me is in my best possible interests, even if I cannot see the logic of it in this very moment.”
This attitude cannot be faked. This attitude requires a state of inner contentment. This attitude requires an inner freedom.
From this place you know that you are so full, so radiant and so joyful within yourself that nothing can take that away from you.
The question is: How?
How to reach this state of internal contentment?
That’s what all spiritual practice is dedicated to. The real work is not about improving yourself, your environment or people around you. It is about finding the place of contentment within you that you can always return to. In fact, this place never leaves. This place is your home.
A great way to dive into deep transformational work for women is to join the Priestess School.
The next Module 1 is taking place this October in Mallorca. I will be leading it together with my team of Leaders and this will be the last module 1 where I will be present in the foreseeable future.
Ready for a deep dive into the Mystery of your Existence? Ready to discover true home within yourself?